To commit suicide or to work on this.
        That's how I'm supposed to go since...since when?
        No matter when it is, I have only one way to go as you know.
        For now I can't seem to be able to commit suicide, then the option left in my hand is...
        That's how things go.
        
        But if that's the case, how is your will?
        Oh, you can say that.
        come to think of that, I wonder that, too.
        It looks strange. Thinkgs weren't supposed to be so.
        
        My will goes...to work on this project, I think.